Nab's World

2012-01-25T01:17:00.001-08:00

1 Malaysia tak boleh 1 Bahasa?

2011-10-20T22:31:00.000-07:00

Hello.

Just felt like sharing my experience of going to the Maxis Centre at KLCC today. I went there to pay my Maxis Broadband bill - one that I've not paid since August, primarily because I thought Maxis Broadband was no good since it gives me a lot more problem than it does give me access to the internet and I planned to pay for it when I want to cancel the broadband with them - Dude! I use Celcom Broadband now!

Anyways, getting back to the title. It's not a massive deal. It's just, when I went to the Maxis Centre in KLCC, this Maxis man greeted me. I appreciate him greeting me, but I find it quite strange how he changed his language whilst talking to me.

So, the conversation goes like this;

Maxis man:Welcome to Maxis. Do you need any help. (I looked pretty lost at this time)
Tiny me: Oh. (Surprised) Hi, Where can I pay my bills?
Maxis man: Oh. Dekat kaunter no. 22
Tiny me: Kaunter 22? Kena beratur ke?
Maxis man: Tak tak tak. Pergi straight je. (Friendly-ish tone)
Tiny me: Oh ok. Terima kasih. :)

See what's so strange about the man? What? you can't? Come on, people! He started greeting me in English and then all of a sudden he changes the language after I answered him in ENGLISH? If you want to speak english so much, carry on speaking english til the end of the conversation! Grr. hehe. Only joking. ^^ It just made me wonder why. ^^

Oh well. I guess that's Malaysia for you. ^^

Note: I wrote this to share and because I think I've left my blog unposted for quite a while now. Sorry bloggy, I've been busy (eating and sleeping). T.T hehe.

Til next time, Salam and a good day to you! ^^

Islam's beauty

2011-06-12T03:41:00.000-07:00

Just thought I'd share a poem I've written for a contest. :)

Islam's beauty

Islam's beauty,

Covers a lot more than covering the body.

It lies in modesty,

And modesty it teaches to society

Islam's beauty,

Cannot be sold for fame or glory.

Because it's not about the money,

It's not about being fancy

Islam's beauty,

Not many can see,

But have a think and have a peek,

You'll find its beauty once you seek

Islam's beauty,

Lies in believing in God,

The One and Only,

There is no God but He

Islam's beauty,

Is not compulsion of religion,

Don't ever bump into confusion.

To force someone to convert is completely forbidden

Islam's beauty,

Lies not in suicide bombings,

Or killing innocent human beings,

Those are fanatics with bias knowledge into being

Islam's beauty,

Can be understood from the Quran and Hadiths only,

Don't judge its beauty from the people around,

They're too worked up to have the beauty found

Islam's beauty,

Brings the world in harmony,

Only when it is applied,

That's the key.

Islam's beauty,

I'm sure you'll agree,

Needs no fee,

Just a heart that can see

Maher Zain - Thank You Allah with Lyrics

2011-06-09T06:18:00.000-07:00

Businesswoman - that's me!

2011-06-01T18:28:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum and a good day to you! (good night to me supposedly - or maybe night since it's 2.23 am atm)

I know, I know. This should be the Malaysia VS England : 5 Reasons (Part 2) entry. But, as you can clearly see, it's not. The reason's pretty simple really. I was on my third reason and I got stuck. I guess I don't want to stay here that much then. LoL. No worries, I'll think of my reasons some other time, eventually, hopefully.

Since I've not updated this blog for a while, I thought it'd be a splendid idea (not good, but SPLENDID!) for me to share an entry which was my first on my different blog. Hope you enjoy it!

*****

Businesswoman, businesswoman.

I want to be a businesswoman.

It's difficult, I agree.

But no success comes for free.

The stress and anxiety?

That's merely the fee.

It won't be easy, as I'll see.

But that's the sweetness of it, you'll see.

Without the stress and anxiety,

How boring it'll be?

So yes - I want to be a businesswoman!

Hard or easy - it'll be just right for me!

So, don't worry.

I'll be fine, trust me!

Because hey,

I'm a businesswoman - that's me!

Malaysia VS England : 5 reasons (Part 1)

2011-05-26T18:50:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum and a good day! (Good morning to me since it's precisely 2.24 am). The reason I'm staying up and writing this? Well, revision has been going well and I want to get my head off revision for the moment being. And since I've been thinking more and more about Malaysia recently, I thought it'd be a good idea to list out my five main reasons why I want to stay and why I want to go back to Malaysia.

Five reasons why I want to go back to Malaysia

1. I miss my bamboo tree!

Weird? I know, but hey - when I miss the tree, I miss it - BADLY. The reason behind it is very VERY SIMPLE. I was 12 when me and my family moved into our new house, and my parents decided to put a bamboo tree on our front lawn. Me? Knowing that my fav animal, Panda eats bamboos, I asked my dad if we could have a panda as our pet. And any insane man would surely say yes. But, being a highly educated person, you can guess my dad said no. So, there I was trying to reason with him.

Me: Why not? We have their food? They eat bamboos, don't they?

Dad: They'll still die because of the climate here.

Me: What about China? They live in China, don't they? It's pretty hot there as well. RIGHT??

My dad then laughed and made me feel like a right idiot!

I can still remember - when we fist bought it, it was just a couple of inches higher than me. Now? After 4 years, it's as high as my rooftop. AWESOME!!

2. I miss my house!

It's surprising how I can miss my bamboo tree more than I miss my house. I can still picture everything - the sofas, the gardens, the park, the 10 minute walk to a waterfall. It was just PERFECT for me. Plus, the house we lived in there was bigger than the house we currently live in here.

3. I miss the neighbourhood!

Having a very friendly father is contagious. Because my parents were so friendly in our new neighbourhood, I bonded easily with our neighbours - old or young, I can talk pretty easily with them until I was known as

KAKLANG

4. I miss my friends!

Friends - no. 4 out of 5. How horrible? Devastating! Just FRUSTRATING. To elaborate why they're my no.4 instead of 1 would be too emotional for me. So, no elaboration on this, sorry.

5. I miss my school!

Being in an all-girls school is completely different to being in a mixed school. And I mean COMPLETELY different. All I can say is - I miss my old school!! But then, God knows how I'd turn up if I were to stay, with all the problems I had with some teachers. Thank God I moved!

Since I'm getting pretty sleepy now, I think I'll end this post with a good night, sleep tight, don't let the bedbugs bite. I'll talk about why I want to stay longer here in England on a later post, insyaAllah.

Assalamualaikum. (^^)

Screw you. I've got tonnes of stuff to do!

2011-03-13T03:52:00.000-07:00

Hello. :)

How long has it been since I've posted? err..6 MONTHS? oops. Just realised that now. xP No wonder a certain someone told me to update more. hehe

This is not directed to the certain someone.

Guess what? I have a new blog now! It's called Nabihah's Code. I know what you're thinking, and I have not left this blog for the new one. The new one is for work purposes. You never know, it might be useful for me to find a job later in life. I'll include all my achievements and positive articles/ poems there (hopefully - when I can find the time). What about this blog, you say? Well, this blog is PERSONAL! Not really, but you know - I don't like mixing a lot of stuff together. And, as I've been reminded by the same certain someone, I need to update that blog as much as well! Ok, I think I'd rather stop myself from rambling further on now.

BUT, being someone who loves talking, I think I'll carry on until you decide to stop reading. Or, when I decide to stop typing nonsense.

OK, the title of this post? Pretty harsh? Well, that's because I initially wanted to write about someone who's been getting on my nerve like 24/7. But now that I've used my time typing about some other stuff, and figured it would be too emotional - I'm over it. *Clap-Clap* :)

And now it's goodbye. (SEE? I don't write that long, do I?)

Oh no, not yet.

Before I go, I would like to say THANK YOU first to all who's read until this bit and are intending to read until the last FULL STOP. If you don't read until the last FULL STOP, you ain't getting any THANK YOUs from me, tqvm. ;P

OK, here goes

THANK YOU

Wait, wait.
I haven't put the full stop in YET.
FULL STOP

NO. not yet.
That wasn't a full stop.

THIS is a FULL STOP.

FULL STOP
.

PS: To all who's been patient in reading this whole silly post. I thank you. :)

I think it's pretty obvious I'm quite bored atm.

Please don't cry...

2010-10-20T15:22:00.001-07:00

Please don't cry,

I've cried my tears out dry,

It's not your turn now,

So please don't cry.

Deactivation seemed the best thing to try,

In order to reduce the plight.

But, oh how sly!

He said that to make me forget my plan!

Looks like you'll have to be stuck with me,

Through laughters or cries,

And don't forget to pay for my flight,

If not to Malaysia, Spain would be alright. ;)

Here, have a cute teddy with a cute lolly. :)

Credits to Umar Mujahid for this drawing of his. :)

Atok!

2010-10-18T04:50:00.000-07:00

Stressed, bored and everything nice. All these bittersweet feelings mixed all together leads to - an entry! :D Not about anything serious, just a simple entry about someone really really special! :) He's cute, he's nice, he's everything adorable made into one. I give you - atok! :)

Atok on AidilAdha :)

How old is he?

Curently, he's 3 years and 3 months old! :) Cute, ain't he? :D His name's Adzwar. :)

Why I call this little cute boy atok?

Well, it's quite a long story. It was on boxing day when I started calling him atok. I went to some shopping outlet or something and met his family there. Because I had no money and left the shopping stuff to my parents, I looked after Adzwar with his not-so-old sister. Apparently, I was an 'auntie' to him. OMG! I'm not even married yet, and he calls me auntie? huhu..Everyone else calls me kaklang and he calls me auntie? I was hurt. :'( But, at the same time, it started a fun episode for us.

Me: Auntie? I'm still young. I'm not an auntie. :(
Atok: Auntie! :D
Me: Humphh..Well, if you call me auntie, I'll call you atok then! :D Atok! Atok!
Atok: Auntie! Auntie! :D

Starting that day onwards, I just called him atok, and some other people as well. :D So, if I call you atok, be honoured! hee~ :D

He's like a cat nowadays~

Before this, if he was shy, he'd run to his mum and just never let anyone take his picture. And me? I broke the record - as can be read here. But, lately, he's been really really shy. Seriously, he acts like a CAT! He's cute like a cat as well, as I'm sure Shu'bah would agree. :P

Once, I was on my way to school - I was pretty late and hardly anyone was around the area. I walked hurriedly until, I came pass a cat. It was a black and white cat. It just stared at me as I was walking and after I passed it - that cat actually FOLLOWED me! It was adorable yet creepy. =.= I had lots of questions running in my head - do I smell like fish? Is it gonna scratch me? Is it gonna follow me to class? Is it gonna kill me? Yet, the cat was somewhat scared of me. Whenever I stopped and looked back, it'd stop as well. When I went to it, it ran away. But, when I went back in my direction, it started following back. Seriously, I was late and a cat was following me around. After a while, when the cat was quite far from its owner's home and in the pathway to my school, it stopped a I continued to walk and it kept on miaowing all the way through. Maybe it wanted me to feed it or something. But then, everytime I tried making my way to it, it just ran away. So, how EXACTLY CAN I feed it?

Ok, enough of the cat story. Back to atok - before this, after I've broken the record of being the person he doesn't mind taking pictures of him, he'd be very happy to see me and claimed I was his girlfriend or best friend. Now on the other hand, he's always shy nowadays and it's just weird how a 'best friend' can be this shy. On KAFA last Saturday, while I was playing with a little girl, Imanina, whom I played 'Big Bad Wolf' with before, atok's sister told me to go to atok and so I went. She literally pushed me to go to him and he literally RAN from me, screaming to his mum. Shocked, I said "I'm being pushed to come here" to his mum after feeling sorry for her as her son screamed for her to pick him up. That was weird but what was even weirder was when I got there. His screams wasn't because he was scared, he was just being playful and shy! :) The cute little boy! :) So, I made my way back to Imanina when atok actually came after me! :D

Why am I relating cats to atok?

Because, there's this bigger atok who is like 20+ years old who loves cats. The way he talks about cats, the way he takes care of them is something quite extraordinary to me. It all seems quite unusual to me - It's as if the word atok can affect one's behaviour towards cats. haha. There's this other person who hates cats without any specific reasons - maybe I need to start calling him atok - maybe then he'll start loving cats! haha. But then, kak meow belang seems to love cats - and I don't call her atok! Maybe it's just this not-atok's problem for hating cats. :P

Ok, that was the story of how I started calling people atok. :) Well, sort of.. :)

"It's ok. At least I've learnt something new." :')

2010-09-20T11:12:00.000-07:00

This happened last Friday after my Further Pure 2 chapter 1 progress test. The experience taught me one important lesson - just because I've revised and went through the work Sir's given doesn't mean I've mastered the subject, nor does it mean I need no more practice. In fact, I think I've learnt quite the opposite - no matter how much you've learnt, there will always be some bits that may have been overlooked or unnnoticed.

In this case, an unexpected, never seen before type-question popped out in the test. So, most of us was really quite stuck. As I've mentioned, it was a progress test for complex numbers. Before the test, I truthfully thought I was ready. I came in class with full confidence that I'd be able to ace it. Unfortunately, one weird proof question popped out - I had no idea how to do it, how I were to even start it. A couple of students asked Sir but being a girl that thinks asking a teacher for help during a test is cheating, I decided to ignore what Sir's answer was. Plus, I couldn't hear him clearly and I didn't have my glasses on to see what he wrote on the board (I think). So, I decided to just leave my answer to that question blank. Dissapointed with myself? COMPLETELY!

Sir said after we finish our test, we can leave the class if we choose to. And I was technically the last person to finish it - all because of that ONE question I had no idea HOW to work out! But, since I didn't want to be a loner, I handed in my answers and said "Sir, now that I've handed in my test. Can you teach me how to do question B please?" and of course, as always, being the helpful teacher he is, he taught me through the question. It seemed so easy after he went through it. How sad I was. In fact, I was sad even before I asked him to help me.

I think my disappointment was a bit too obvious since Sir said "I shouldn't have put that kind of question in", maybe after guessing I was upset with my 'failure'. Fortunately, I reminded myself to be thankful. Alhamdulillah. So, I replied "It's ok. At least I learnt something new :')" and Sir said "Yes, you have". Saying that really did help the burden off my chest, but I still had tears just waiting to get out and so I went to the loo - let the frustration out straight to my face. And yes, I managed to smile after that! :) Alhamdulillah. :)

Today, I got back my result as a C. It was a short test, I lost 3 marks on that particular 'difficult' question, and did some careless mistakes which costed me 2 marks on the next question and I've somehow lost a mark on a 7 mark question (although I'm sure I should've gotten a full 7 on that one), which gave me an overall mark of 10/16 - 63%. To say the least, I'm not that happy but at the same time I'm not that sad. I mean hey, at least I've learnt something new! :) Plus the fact that Sir complimented me on my 'honesty' for not answering the question instead of just giving what he claims as 'garbage' in order to gamble for marks like how some students did, I'm quite happy to say the least.

So, two lessons learnt:

1. Knowledge can never be achieved in full perfection,

so learn as much to cover the most that we can possibly can.

2. When failure comes, focus on the positives and work for a better future. :)

Salam~ :)

Sehari dengan hati.

2010-08-24T17:44:00.001-07:00

Pagi,
Syukur pada Ilahi,
Diri masih bernafas lagi,
Peluang keemasan untuk memperbaiki diri,
dan tingkatkan iman di dalam hati.

Zohor datang ziarah lagi,
Tertanya diri,
Sudah sembuhkah wahai hati?
Atau masih lalai dengan cinta duniawi?

Asar, lagi peluang yang diberi Ilahi,
Untuk sucikan hati, perbaikkan diri.
Selamatkan diri dari azab yang tidak terperi,
Sudah insafkah engkau wahai hati?

Dapat berjumpa maghrib pada hari ini,
Hari esok tidak tentu lagi,
Diri, sudah cukupkah jasadmu berbakti?
Ikhlas demi Tuhan yang Maha Tinggi?

Alhamdulillah, Isya' hadir sekali lagi,
Namun diri, sudahkah engkau periksa hati?
Cinta Allah-kah yang menjadi prioriti?
Atau janji manusia yang tidak pernah pasti?

Itulah dia,
Episod 'sehari dengan hati'.
Moga episod ini sentiasa diulangi,
Agar dapat ku insafi,
Akan kekerdilan diri di hadapan Ilahi.

A glimpse of Land's End, Cornwall. :)

Engkau NAK lelaki soleh?

2010-08-23T09:58:00.001-07:00

"Siapa yang dapat jawab, kita hadiahkan doa" kata abang fasilitator tu.

Lantas, tanganku pun terangkat tinggi-tinggi. Dari tadi ada hasrat ingin menjawab, malu je - itu masalahnya.

"Ha, itu nak doa la tu. Bagus3. Datang sini, jawab dekat depan" Sambung abang fasilitator. "Nama apa?" dia tanya.

"Nabihah" senang aku menjawab.

*Ha? Itu je soalannye? hehe. takde5. itu dia bertanya nama je, takde hadiah untuk nama. :)*

"Ok, soalannya, kenapa kita lebih malu dengan manusia daripada malu dengan Allah?" abang tu tanya.

"err.." fikiranku kosong. Jawapan yang entah pape mengisi otakku. "entah. sebab dorg malu dengan manusia kot" Jawabku ringkas. Terdetik di hati "aik. bukan tu soalan ke?" Muka dah makin merah, berdiri di hadapan 200 lebih pelajar, cikgu pun ada. Buat malu je. T.T Takpe3. nak buat macam mana? Bila orang tanya soalan, tak habis fikir jawapan, terus rajin mengangkat tangan.

Abang fasilitator tu pun, macam faham budak seorang ni dah malu, tanya lah soalan lain - soalan yang seakan-akan solan yang pertama, cume subjek malu ditukar jadi berus gigi. "Kenapa manusia berus gigi bila berjumpa dengan kawan2 dan manusia lain, tetapi tidak memberus gigi apabila solat?"

"hurrmm..sebab diorang malu mulut berbau kut. dah jumpa face to face dengan manusia. Waktu solat, diorang tak nampak Allah. So, mungkin diorang lupa kot yang Allah nampak diorang" jawapku, mengharap persetujuan dari abang fasilitator tu.

"ok la jawapan tu." jawap si abang F tu. "Ok. untuk hadiah adik, jom kita semua tadah tangan, bacakan doa untuk adik Nabihah ni" Semua murid tadah tangan, pandang aku. Segan yang dirasakan tak terkata tingginya.
Aku pun tadah la tangan, mengharapkan doa yang akan abang F tu baca doa yang baik2 dan akan dimakbulkan.

"Ya Allah ya Tuhan kami, kurniakanlah kepada adik Nabihah Md Zaid ini taufiq dan hidayahMu, tunjukilah dia jalan yang benar. Perbaikkanlah akhlak dan ibadahnya. Jadikanlah dia seorang anak yang patuh kepada kedua ibu bapanya, Kurniakanlah kepadanya lelaki yang soleh sebagai suaminya dan jadikanlah dia seorang isteri yang solehah. Kurniakanlah kepadanya zuriat yang baik dan matikanlah dia dalam keadaan khusnul khotimah. Berkatilah, rahmatilah dan redhailah dia. Ameen" baca abang F. Kami pun turut mengaminkan doa tersebut. Hatiku waktu tu, bukan main gembira lagi, dapat doa sebegitu baik dan diaminkan oleh lebih dari 200 orang. Alhamdulillah. Moga Allah makbulkan. :)

Habis sesi ceramah tu, aku menunggu dengan kawan2 di perhentian bas yang terletak di seberang sekolah, menanti kedatangan ibu bapaku. Sedang kami gelak ketawa, bergurau senda, salah seorang dari kawanku, S, berkata "Nabihah. Engkau tahu tak tadi ramai orang aminkan doa tadi. Lagi tinggi peluang dimakbulkan."

Pelik dengan nada S berkata, aku pun menjwab "Yeah? So? Bagus la tuh? :D"

"Engkau nak ke kahwin dengan lelaki soleh?" tanya S.

"Of course la, siapa yang tak mahu?" jawapku ringkas.

"Seriously? Nanti dia kongkong engkau kang? Suruh pakai tudung la, ini la, itu la" S bekata lagi.

"Aku OK je. Kalau dia lelaki soleh, of course la dia seorang yang baik. Kalau aku buat salah, dia perbetulkan. Kalau aku tak pakai tudung, dia ingatkan aku untuk pakai. Kan bagus? Ada orang yang akan mengingatkan aku bila aku lupa. Boleh selamatkan aku dari api neraka, InsyaAllah." jawapanku, panjang lebar.

"Hmm. Engkau iman tinggi, aku bukan macam engkau la. Rimas aku kalau ada orang kongkong aku" jawap S.

"Ha? Macam mana engkau boleh ukur aku punya iman pulak ni? Kalau dia kongkong, itu untuk kebaikan engkau jugak. Tapi, kalau dia memang betul seorang lelaki yang soleh, mana boleh dia kongkong engkau, dakwah perlu berhikmah. Kan?" jawap aku, mengharapkan dia boleh nampak kebaikan dalam 'lelaki soleh'.

"Hmm. maybe." jawap S ringkas. Mungkin malas nak berdebat, mungkin dia dah nampak point aku. Yang pasti, aku harap doa tadi dimakbulkan Allah S.W.T. :)

Episod ni berlaku waktu diri ini sedang di bangku sekolah menengah. Mungkin waktu tu, umur baru, 13, 14 atau 15. Yang pasti, waktu sedang belajar di SMK St.Mary dan sebelum aku datang ke sini (England). Jadi, memandangkan sudah teramatlah lama episod ni terbuku di dalam hati, tak semua details boleh aku ingat, tak semua details dalam cerita ini boleh dijamin benar, doa tu pun aku tak ingat sepenuhnya. Yang memang aku highlight dalam doa tu, tentang lelaki soleh sampai sekarang aku ingat adalah kerana soalan yang ditujukan S.

Sampai sekarang aku tertanya tanya, jikalau lelaki soleh bukan menjadi pilihan para gadis, lelaki jenis apa yang remaja2 sekarang cari? Yang akan 'bersuka ria' sebelum kahwin dan meninggalkan mereka pabila sudah berkahwin? Itupun, KALAULAH sampai ke alam perkahwinan hubungan mereka. Jikalau tidak, siapakah lelaki yang mereka ingin dijadikan suami? Tidak terkejutlah bila makin lama makin banyak kes zina. Tidak terkejutlah di zaman sekarang, kanak2 di bangku sekolah rendah pun dah mula menjinak-jinakkan diri dengan cinta monyet mereka, bercouple sini dan sana. Siap bertukar-tukar boyfriend lagi. Iman sudah hilang nilaikah? Nauzubillah. Astargfirullah hal azhim. Aku berlindung kepada Allah daripada trend zaman sekarang yang rosak lagi merosakkan.

Akhirnya, saya memohon maaf kepada mana-mana pihak yang tersinggung. Entri ini ditulis sebagai peringatan kepada diri untuk memperbaiki iman dan sabar dalam menempuhi dugaan.

Sekian, terima kasih.

Salam~ ^^

My Loves, Ramadhan's here!! :D

2010-08-10T11:27:00.000-07:00

It's nearly here and as I understand, it will start on Wednesday the 11th (tomorrow) ! :) Happy fasting! :) May our deeds be accepted and our faith strengthen. :)

This note is for all - mama, ayah, abg2, kakak2, adik2, nenek2, atok2, cucu2, moyang2 n all!. :) Unfortunately, I wanted to tag loads more people but I can't. T.T So, whether you're tagged or not, please read :)

I'd like to say I'm sorry for all my wrongdoings, my words which may hv upset you, acting like a kid, calling names that you don't like (do let me know), talking behind your back, not keeping promises, not paying back my debts and all the other horrible things which I may have done or put you through. Apologies from my hand, my mouth, my brain, my heart, my everything! I am so so so so so so SORRY. really I am. will you forgive me? :(

Other than that, I'd like to say thank you to ALL for helping me, advising me, reminding me of the difference between good and bad and a lot of other good deeds you've done. :D Thank you! May Allah bless! :)

May we have a blessed ramadhan and may we meet lailatul qadar, insyaAllah. :) I pray you peace and harmony. :D

salam~ ^^

This iPhone is for .....

2010-08-04T16:08:00.000-07:00

Correct. This iPhone is for the one and only 'BIG cucu' that I have, ojeesan or better known as Munsyi OR better known as, again, bakal jurutera. From the last name, I presume he dreams of being an engineer. He does automotive engineering anyway - so, I'm pretty sure I'm right to say he wants to be an engineer. :D

Since it's your birthday, bakal jurutera, let me just say - thank you for all your help, ojeesan! What's that got anything to do with your birthday? Well, that's an example of how long you've helped me - it's been like what? 23 years now?! LOL. nahh..I've not lived that long. It's been for about a couple of months now? I ain't fooling - thanks atok (the name you refused to be called)!

Before I forget, if you're getting married before June next year, please do prepare a sum of money for my flight to your wedding! haha xD <-- No, seriously - I'm dead serious.! :)

Just a short poem for you:

Selamat hari jadi wahai bakal jurutera,

Syukur, umurmu panjang dengan izin-Nya.

Jangan lupa jemput obachan di luar negara,

Pabila kamu berkahwin dengan si dia.

Demi kebahagiaanmu wahai bakal jurutera,

Doaku, moga kamu berjaya di dunia dan akhirat hendaknya.

And here I end this entry, Assalamualaikum~ ^^

*****END*****

Aku pernah ditanya

2010-08-03T13:07:00.000-07:00

Aku pernah ditanya,
apakah itu makna cinta?
Sungguh ku rasa,
soalan itu tidak patut ditanya,
kepada diri ini yang masih belajar tentang dunia.

Hatiku mengatakan,
Cinta itu perasaan kasih yang mendalam lagi melembutkan.

Akalku mengatakan,
Cinta itu kasih sayang yang tiada batasan.

Apabila ku mengambil masa,
memikirkan jawapanku sedalam-dalamnya,
Ternyatalah diri ini telah dipengaruhi oleh pelbagai faktor dunia,
di dalam definisi cinta.

Jawapan terbaikku tentang cinta,
Ia amat berharga, amat mulia untuk diberi makna sewenang-wenangnya.
Tidak boleh dihakimi dengan kata-kata.
Tidak boleh disamakan dengan perasaan suka.

Cinta kepada yang Maha Esa,
Adalah cinta yang paling mulia,
Dan patut menjadi prioriti kita sebagai hambaNya.

Cinta kepada keluarga, saudara mara dan semua yang kita jumpa,
Adalah harus untuk kesejahteraan di dunia.

Cinta di antara suami isteri,
bahagia lagi membahagiakan,
menambahkan pahala dan keredhaanNya.

Tetapi, apabila pasangan yang tidak sah mengatakan diri sedang dilamun cinta,
Akan selamatkah mereka dari dosa dan murkaNya?
Akan terpeliharakah diri mereka dari seksaan kubur dan neraka?

Jadi, berwaspadalah apabila bercinta,
Jadikan Pencipta dan pesuruhNya sebagai prioriti kita,
Ibu bapa, keluarga dan saudara seagama seterusnya,
Dan janganlah kita mudah terpedaya dengan kata-kata manusia yang mengatakan diri dilamun cinta.

Aku nak jatuh cinta.

2010-08-01T20:57:00.000-07:00

Aku nak jatuh cinta.
Aku nak cari cinta yang mulia.
Cinta manusia?
Tidak sama sekali, kerana,
Cinta manusia banyak dusta.

Aku nak cari cinta yang Maha Pencipta.
Kerana aku tahu, Dialah yang Maha Mulia.
Jadi, tentulah CintaNya yang terpaling Mulia.

Tapi, pencarian ini memang teramat susah,
terpaksa aku mengakuinya,
Kerana, cinta manusia bersepah merata.
Cinta keluarga, kawan dan saudara, aku tidak kisah.
Tapi, cinta lelaki yang entah bercinta kenapa.

Nak mengatakan agama.
Bukankah dia patut menunggu dahulu sehingga diriku halal baginya,
sebelum dia melafazkan cinta?

Nak mengatakan budaya,
Yang mana satu lebih tinggi prioritinya,
Budaya atau agama?

Mungkin itulah dia nafsu bertopeng cinta,
Hati mengatakan cinta,
Iman mengatakan 'cinta' yang dilafaz hanya dusta semata.

Untuk selamatkan diri dan ibu bapa, keluarga dan saudara,
Aku ingin jatuh cinta.
Biarlah cinta itu cinta sebenar-benarnya.
Ku tidak mahu lagi cinta dusta.
Kerana ku tahu, diri ini teramat berharga,
Bukan dicipta oleh Pencipta,
Untuk cinta permainan suka-suka hambaNya.

A cat made me smile. :)

2010-07-29T18:54:00.000-07:00

This happened when I was in my secondary school years in Malaysia. I don't know if it's something unusual or something normal, all I know is - until now, I can't forget what's happened and I don't think I would ever want to forget it.! :) Two cats it was that made me smile - one was orange with white stripe and the other was a black and white cat. Both came when I cried and both turned my frown upside down. :)

As a student who depends on her parents to fetch her from school everyday, when I cannot leave the school before 1:50 pm, I'd have to wait for my mum until 5- 5:30 pm. Waiting until 5:30 would have been fine, IF I only had some friends with me. The only problem was, by 4:30, the school's already empty - leaving me by myself and the security guard. I don't what I was scared of more, the strangers outside or the security guard that was INSIDE the school. I'm a girl - with the crime rates increasing, anything could have happened! At first, I wanted to just let the time fly by doing my homeworks or revising or ANYTHING that'd be useful. I was too scared though. All I could think about was my fate - if there were some people trying to kidnap me, what would I do? If the security guard tried to harm me, how will I defend myself? I even came up with some Kung Fu moves (which I made up myself) just so that I can be prepared if the worst should happen. This came to be sort-of like a norm to me.

On one occasion, I broke down by the canteen's long stool and cried - the canteen was dark, the day seemed to get darker and I spotted a male foreign worker somewhere. I was scared and I didn't know what else I can do. I was technically cursing the school for making the extra curricular thing compulsory - I was emotional then, please understand. When I reassured myself that it was for my own good (I think I did xP), I prayed and prayed for my safety, at the same time thinking of ways to defend myself if anything should happen. Right then and there, the orange cat came. It jumped on the long stool I was sitting on and looked at me, smiling 'mee-ow'ing. I knew tears were still coming out of eyes, but this time, I had a smile on my face. For some reason, my heart calmed and I seriously had the feeling that Allah sent the cat to make me feel better. ngee~ I LOVED IT! ^^ Usually, I'd be scared of cats for their claws, and if they tried coming near me, I'd move away. But this one, it came closer and just sat on the stool and I didn't mind that (surprisingly). Believe it or not, I actually talked to the cat - and that made me feel better. :) You can call me weird if you want, I'm just happy to hear whatever you have to say.

The black and white cat came when the weather was not as good as I've hoped. It was raining heavily, the sounds of thunders were banging in my ears and the sky was dark. Hence, the reason why it proved to be even more scarier than the experience before. Before this I sat in the canteen, now I sat in between the canteen and the school's pavement which linked to my old primary school. Whenever I heard the thunder, my heart would tremble, hoping that I won't be struck by the lightning. As before, I prayed and prayed and prayed. And, a cat came out of NOWHERE. Well, it might have come from the curriculum room wall I was leaning against. hihi. Like the cat from before, this cat smiled as well and you cannot imagine how calm that made me feel. I was thankful, amazed and just happy that, that cat came. Alhamdulilah. My tears of fear were replaced by tears of joy, laughter and just amazement. I just sat down and thought of the cat as my friend. Talking my heart out.

As I've said before, I don't know if both these experiences are something unusual or something normal, all I know is - until now, I can't forget what's happened and I don't think I would ever want to forget it.! :) And thought I'd like to share it in my blog, so that whenever my time comes, my family and friends would know one of those memories which I just LOVE! :)

Assalamualaikum~ ^^

The episode of my change.

2010-07-27T16:38:00.000-07:00

When I was young, I committed a LOT of sins. Prayers to me were nothing, wearing the hijab (to cover my aurah) to me was boring and lying to me, was something unavoidable in order to save myself from getting told off - eventhough I knew lying was and IS a sin, and I've done a lot of other sins as well as all that I've listed. I would avoid doing all the compulsory thing wherever possible. Basically, although I was a Muslim and testified that there is no God but Allah and Muhammad (SAW) is His messenger, I don't think I truly believed there will be a Hereafter. I was blinded by this World - having fun seemed to be my main priority in life.

After a couple of years living in ignorance, I finally changed, Alhamdulillah.

It was a beautiful month of Ramadhan. At first, I was reluctant to fast, but, because my parents and my older brother and sister fasted and I was expected to fast as well, I fasted - even though it seemed boring and somewhat a torture to me. All this was out of my own ignorance of course.

Until one fine morning, I thought, "If I have to fast, I might as well wake up early to fill my stomache up, enough for the day". So, I woke up around 4 o'clock in the morning, around an hour and a half earlier than Fajar (subuh - sunrise in english). Because I was young, around 12 or 13 years old back then, I didn't know what to do after waking up that early. Helping my mum cook would be something I'm clueless about. And so, I decided to take a shower - four o'clock in the morning - you can imagine how cold it was! After I showered, I had no idea what to do - our house was neat and tidy - meaning I wouldn't be able to pass the time by tidying up (although I felt like wanting to be a good girl).

Since I had nothing better to do, I turned on the TV. The first channel that came on had a man reciting the Quran. Out of foolishness, I changed the TV to other channels in the hope of some cartoons. Fortunately for me, Cartoon Network was unbearably boring and most of the other cartoon channels didn't have any cartoons on air due to the time of day. So, I thought I might as well go to the first channel rather than sticking my face on Cartoon Network. I listened to the recitation of the Quran and read the translation (tafseers) of the verses that was on the screen and my heart trembled with fear as I read and listened more attentively. I think it was a verse about the states of the people of Hellfire. And then, a verse about the states of the people of Paradise. My heart trembled with fear, all I wanted to do was cry and cry and all I prayed for was my safety from the Hellfire. Because I didn't want my mum to see me cry, I tried to keep it all inside me.

After that one unforgettable experience, I changed. I started praying five times a day, started having an interest in learning more about Islam and just keeping myself occupied with good deeds rather than bad. Wearing the hijab was not an embarrassment to me anymore, I saw it as a MUST thing to do in order to save myself from Hell and get myself closer to Allah SWT. Alhamdulliah, until now I'm thankful for that experince to Allah as it has changed me to a better person - even my families were surprised with my changes (I think). I don't think I have ever told them this story though, even though I've been asked by one of them before why I've changed. Subbahanallah Wal hamdulillah Wa la ila ha illahu allah hu akbar. Who knows, I might have been granted this hidayah because of some people's prayers. For all those people, I thank you! :) May we be among the guided ones and saved from Hell. ameen~

Why am I telling you this story?

A lot of people has been wondering how and why I've changed. Well folks, that was the answer to your question. Please do note that I am still a normal human being and I still do have a lot to learn. So, please do correct me when I'm wrong and please forgive me for all my wrongdoings.

Thank you, Assalamualaikum.~ ^^

My restaurant has NO doors, but it DOES have an entrance. :)

2010-07-25T15:14:00.000-07:00

It's been quite a while since I've played Restaurant City. No, let me rephrase that - It's been AAAGES since I played Restaurant City on FaceBook. After getting back on it today, truthfully, I wasn't surprised why I left it for such a long time - the restaurant was horrible! I think it was a plan gone wrong or something.

At first, looking at it - I was like "Nahh..I ain't playing this thing again. It looks too awful!".

The trouble with me - I want my restaurant to be like all those other famous five-star restaurants. That's not a weakness - rather, it should be a motivation, right? But hey, I thought it looked so horrible that it own't be worth my time to play on it anymore. But then it hit me!

"Nabihah, if you intend on making a business, you can't just give up everytime things don't go as how you've planned!"

And that my friends was the start of my newly-found inspiration to keep on playing the game! haha xD. It's AMAZING how you can relate a game to reality just to make yourself 'work' harder. You see, I've been wanting to start my own business when I get back home in Malaysia - possibly start selling at my university. Selling and studying - that'll be one of my dreams come true. :) That is of course - if Allah wills. ^^ The world of business, as I understand, will not be as easy as this game - there'll be loads more risk and loads more problems on the way. So, that's how I came to that kind of conclusion - to never GIVE UP! ngee~! :D

The picture above is my restaurant after that 'inspiration' I had. Notice that it doesn't come with doors but has a maze for a garden? Well, that's so that I can buy time and reduce the number of 'complaints' I'd get from my beloved customers. :) However, I felt I could buy some more time - which led to this:

I know - the tiles needs to be changed, and I need to find a better way of buying time since this one looks horrible! I'm broke at the moment and so, highly doubt I can add that much to the restaurant with such little money.

Whatever happens to the restaurant, I think I'll just let it happen because NOW is the time for me to get back to reality!

Assalamualaikum~ ^^

Jikalau cinta itu mulia.

2010-07-22T16:25:00.000-07:00