Please don't cry...

Please don't cry,

I've cried my tears out dry,

It's not your turn now,

So please don't cry.

 

Deactivation seemed the best thing to try,

In order to reduce the plight.

But, oh how sly!

He said that to make me forget my plan!

 

Looks like you'll have to be stuck with me,

Through laughters or cries,

And don't forget to pay for my flight,

If not to Malaysia, Spain would be alright. ;)

 

Here, have a cute teddy with a cute lolly. :)

Credits to Umar Mujahid for this drawing of his. :)

Atok!

Stressed, bored and everything nice. All these bittersweet feelings mixed all together leads to - an entry! :D Not about anything serious, just a simple entry about someone really really special! :) He's cute, he's nice, he's everything adorable made into one. I give you - atok! :)

Atok on AidilAdha :)

How old is he?

Curently, he's 3 years and 3 months old! :) Cute, ain't he? :D His name's Adzwar. :)

Why I call this little cute boy atok?

Well, it's quite a long story. It was on boxing day when I started calling him atok. I went to some shopping outlet or something and met his family there. Because I had no money and left the shopping stuff to my parents, I looked after Adzwar with his not-so-old sister. Apparently, I was an 'auntie' to him. OMG! I'm not even married yet, and he calls me auntie? huhu..Everyone else calls me kaklang and he calls me auntie? I was hurt. :'( But, at the same time, it started a fun episode for us.

Me: Auntie? I'm still young. I'm not an auntie. :(
Atok: Auntie! :D
Me: Humphh..Well, if you call me auntie, I'll call you atok then! :D Atok! Atok!
Atok: Auntie! Auntie! :D

Starting that day onwards, I just called him atok, and some other people as well. :D So, if I call you atok, be honoured! hee~ :D

He's like a cat nowadays~

Before this, if he was shy, he'd run to his mum and just never let anyone take his picture. And me? I broke the record - as can be read here. But, lately, he's been really really shy. Seriously, he acts like a CAT! He's cute like a cat as well, as I'm sure Shu'bah would agree. :P

Once, I was on my way to school - I was pretty late and hardly anyone was around the area. I walked hurriedly until, I came pass a cat. It was a black and white cat. It just stared at me as I was walking and after I passed it - that cat actually FOLLOWED me! It was adorable yet creepy. =.= I had lots of questions running in my head - do I smell like fish? Is it gonna scratch me? Is it gonna follow me to class? Is it gonna kill me? Yet, the cat was somewhat scared of me. Whenever I stopped and looked back, it'd stop as well. When I went to it, it ran away. But, when I went back in my direction, it started following back. Seriously, I was late and a cat was following me around. After a while, when the cat was quite far from its owner's home and in the pathway to my school, it stopped a I continued to walk and it kept on miaowing all the way through. Maybe it wanted me to feed it or something. But then, everytime I tried making my way to it, it just ran away. So, how EXACTLY CAN I feed it?

Ok, enough of the cat story. Back to atok - before this, after I've broken the record of being the person he doesn't mind taking pictures of him, he'd be very happy to see me and claimed I was his girlfriend or best friend. Now on the other hand, he's always shy nowadays and it's just weird how a 'best friend' can be this shy. On KAFA last Saturday, while I was playing with a little girl, Imanina, whom I played 'Big Bad Wolf' with before, atok's sister told me to go to atok and so I went. She literally pushed me to go to him and he literally RAN from me, screaming to his mum. Shocked, I said "I'm being pushed to come here" to his mum after feeling sorry for her as her son screamed for her to pick him up. That was weird but what was even weirder was when I got there. His screams wasn't because he was scared, he was just being playful and shy! :) The cute little boy! :) So, I made my way back to Imanina when atok actually came after me! :D

Why am I relating cats to atok?

Because, there's this bigger atok who is like 20+ years old who loves cats. The way he talks about cats, the way he takes care of them is something quite extraordinary to me. It all seems quite unusual to me - It's as if the word atok can affect one's behaviour towards cats. haha.  There's this other person who hates cats without any specific reasons - maybe I need to start calling him atok - maybe then he'll start loving cats! haha. But then, kak meow belang seems to love cats - and I don't call her atok! Maybe it's just this not-atok's problem for hating cats. :P

Ok, that was the story of how I started calling people atok. :) Well, sort of.. :)



"It's ok. At least I've learnt something new." :')

This happened last Friday after my Further Pure 2 chapter 1 progress test. The experience taught me one important lesson - just because I've revised and went through the work Sir's given doesn't mean I've mastered the subject, nor does it mean I need no more practice. In fact, I think I've learnt quite the opposite - no matter how much you've learnt, there will always be some bits that may have been overlooked or unnnoticed.

In this case, an unexpected, never seen before type-question popped out in the test. So, most of us was really quite stuck. As I've mentioned, it was a progress test for complex numbers. Before the test, I truthfully thought I was ready. I came in class with full confidence that I'd be able to ace it. Unfortunately, one weird proof question popped out - I had no idea how to do it, how I were to even start it. A couple of students asked Sir but being a girl that thinks asking a teacher for help during a test is cheating, I decided to ignore what Sir's answer was. Plus, I couldn't hear him clearly and I didn't have my glasses on to see what he wrote on the board (I think). So, I decided to just leave my answer to that question blank. Dissapointed with myself? COMPLETELY!

Sir said after we finish our test, we can leave the class if we choose to. And I was technically the last person to finish it - all because of that ONE question I had no idea HOW to work out! But, since I didn't want to be a loner, I handed in my answers and said "Sir, now that I've handed in my test. Can you teach me how to do question B please?" and of course, as always, being the helpful teacher he is, he taught me through the question. It seemed so easy after he went through it. How sad I was. In fact, I was sad even before I asked him to help me.

I think my disappointment was a bit too obvious since Sir said "I shouldn't have put that kind of question in", maybe after guessing I was upset with my 'failure'. Fortunately, I reminded myself to be thankful. Alhamdulillah. So, I replied "It's ok. At least I learnt something new :')" and Sir said "Yes, you have". Saying that really did help the burden off my chest, but I still had tears just waiting to get out and so I went to the loo - let the frustration out straight to my face. And yes, I managed to smile after that! :) Alhamdulillah. :)

Today, I got back my result as a C. It was a short test, I lost 3 marks on that particular 'difficult' question, and did some careless mistakes which costed me 2 marks on the next question and I've somehow lost a mark on a 7 mark question (although I'm sure I should've gotten a full 7 on that one), which gave me an overall mark of 10/16 - 63%. To say the least, I'm not that happy but at the same time I'm not that sad. I mean hey, at least I've learnt something new! :) Plus the fact that Sir complimented me on my 'honesty' for not answering the question instead of just giving what he claims as 'garbage' in order to gamble for marks like how some students did, I'm quite happy to say the least.

So, two lessons learnt:

1. Knowledge can never be achieved in full perfection,

so learn as much to cover the most that we can possibly can.

2. When failure comes, focus on the positives and work for a better future. :)

Salam~ :)