A number of people has been curious to know why I have a blog – why I write what I write and what makes me want to write. Some believe I should really be studying instead of blogging. For those people, as much as I appreciate your concern for my studies and my future in this world, please allow me to explain why I write what I write and why I cannot afford to give in to negativity – either yours or mine.
My time is near
I know you'll argue that I'm still young. By the 30th December this year, I will reach my 18th birthday – that is of course, IF Allah wills. If my death comes before that, what would I have as my 'source' of rewards (pahala) if I have not done anything that people can benefit from after my death? I am hopeful that what I write here will benefit myself, and my readers – boy or girl, young or old. I want my blog to be useful, not a place to say that I'm a fool.:)
I am a normal, sensitive girl
I don't like to show it, but believe me – even the slightest negativity can upset me, especially if its from someone I really care about and expect support from. Please, I'm begging you, encourage me through positivity, not through your negative attitudes. I'm a human being, a student and still learning. So, I'm bound to make mistakes. Would you then, not forgive me for these mistakes of mine?
Amar Ma'aruf, Nahi Munkar
If I wanted to live in a healthier, happier and safer society, why would I not stick to this concept? Amar Ma'aruf, Nahi Munkar - Call people to things that are good, prevent them from doing things that are bad or can lead to bad consequences. Please understand, as I try to fix my own self, I also want to fix this World into being better. You might say I'm ambitious – well, I'll say – YOU'RE RIGHT! And it's because I'm ambitious that I work hard. Otherwise, I might just laze around and act as if the whole world revolves around me.
To conclude, all I'm asking for is your encouragement, kindness and forgiveness. I have not been able to say it to you straight because you seem to stick with the thought that I am 'too ambitious' when it comes to Islam. So, I'm sorry and I hope you'll forgive me because, as I've said before, I cannot afford to give in to negativity – either yours, or mine. Pray for me. :)