"It's ok. At least I've learnt something new." :')

This happened last Friday after my Further Pure 2 chapter 1 progress test. The experience taught me one important lesson - just because I've revised and went through the work Sir's given doesn't mean I've mastered the subject, nor does it mean I need no more practice. In fact, I think I've learnt quite the opposite - no matter how much you've learnt, there will always be some bits that may have been overlooked or unnnoticed.

In this case, an unexpected, never seen before type-question popped out in the test. So, most of us was really quite stuck. As I've mentioned, it was a progress test for complex numbers. Before the test, I truthfully thought I was ready. I came in class with full confidence that I'd be able to ace it. Unfortunately, one weird proof question popped out - I had no idea how to do it, how I were to even start it. A couple of students asked Sir but being a girl that thinks asking a teacher for help during a test is cheating, I decided to ignore what Sir's answer was. Plus, I couldn't hear him clearly and I didn't have my glasses on to see what he wrote on the board (I think). So, I decided to just leave my answer to that question blank. Dissapointed with myself? COMPLETELY!

Sir said after we finish our test, we can leave the class if we choose to. And I was technically the last person to finish it - all because of that ONE question I had no idea HOW to work out! But, since I didn't want to be a loner, I handed in my answers and said "Sir, now that I've handed in my test. Can you teach me how to do question B please?" and of course, as always, being the helpful teacher he is, he taught me through the question. It seemed so easy after he went through it. How sad I was. In fact, I was sad even before I asked him to help me.

I think my disappointment was a bit too obvious since Sir said "I shouldn't have put that kind of question in", maybe after guessing I was upset with my 'failure'. Fortunately, I reminded myself to be thankful. Alhamdulillah. So, I replied "It's ok. At least I learnt something new :')" and Sir said "Yes, you have". Saying that really did help the burden off my chest, but I still had tears just waiting to get out and so I went to the loo - let the frustration out straight to my face. And yes, I managed to smile after that! :) Alhamdulillah. :)

Today, I got back my result as a C. It was a short test, I lost 3 marks on that particular 'difficult' question, and did some careless mistakes which costed me 2 marks on the next question and I've somehow lost a mark on a 7 mark question (although I'm sure I should've gotten a full 7 on that one), which gave me an overall mark of 10/16 - 63%. To say the least, I'm not that happy but at the same time I'm not that sad. I mean hey, at least I've learnt something new! :) Plus the fact that Sir complimented me on my 'honesty' for not answering the question instead of just giving what he claims as 'garbage' in order to gamble for marks like how some students did, I'm quite happy to say the least.

So, two lessons learnt:

1. Knowledge can never be achieved in full perfection,

so learn as much to cover the most that we can possibly can.

2. When failure comes, focus on the positives and work for a better future. :)

Salam~ :)

A Level, HERE I COME!!

Salam~ ^^

OK. So today, I finished my AS exams. Mechanics was surprisingly easy (will be considered again when I get my result) and Decision 1 was - as always, 'annoyingly' easy, meaning it may have seen easy but I could have done some mistakes on some questions. Oh well, that's all in the past now.

Tomorrow, InsyaAllah, if I'm still alive - will be the start of my A2 studies! The year 13s (including me) are supposedly starting our A2 courses next week. But, because I would like to do the January exams instead of waiting until June, I guess even four days (Thursday, Friday, Saturday and Sunday) of studying can make a difference.

8 exams to do in January - WOW! Even some teachers are getting concerned now. What on earth has happened to Nabihah? Well, this girl is desperate to go home ASAP! So, allow me to take that risk and let me just show you what I'm capable of..hehe~ InsyaAllah (God's willing).

To all my lovely teachers, (whom I highly doubt you'll read this) I thank you for your concerns. I mean - I have not shown high interests in my studies in AS level, but I promise you (I do?), You are going to see a whole new Nabihah! haha xD 50% of my time on Studying , 20% Facebooking (instead of the other way around) and 30% more on other things! Come on - I am a NORMAL human being! :D

So,

Further Pure 2, Decision Maths 2, Mechanics 2 - I'll cherish you! (will you promise to cherish me too?) <3

Core 3, Core 4, Stats 2 - I'll love you! (as long as you love me too)! <3

Business Studies 3 & 4 - you know I'll never forget you! <3

I wanna do my degree!! but errr... ¬.¬

Degree, here I come!!

..I wish T.T

Gonna be 18 this year! ^^ InsyaAllah. If I were to do my degree, that would be awesome! One PROBLEM though, I don't know how many courses I can take! I'm thinking of taking 4, but don't know if the uni will let me? :( What Uni I'm talking about? Of course, the one and only - International Islamic University Malaysia :) I've always wanted to go to this uni, but don't know if I can. :( Oh well, there's always Oxford if IIUM doesn't accept me. :D haha xD. Back to my point, why am I so excited for this degree of mine? Well, my future degree I meant. At the moment, I'm studying at Burleigh Community College, doing my AS levels. If and when I go back home in Malaysia, they (IIUM) said

"u can use the A-level (in this we mean the Advanced Level Certificate) to be enrolled in our Undergraduate program proceed for Degree"

Reasons why its cool:
1. Most of my friends are doing matriculation. I'm ahead?! hee~~ :D
2. A 22 year old 'friend' is starting his degree this September, in some other uni (he had to get years of working experience before he could do his degree before this). Me going in uni next year would mean he's only a year ahead of me - 4 years difference in our age, 1 year difference in our studies! muahahahaha xDD
3. I personally never wanted to go to uni. I've always thought of starting my own business instead of furthering studies in uni. Going uni early means leaving uni early which means less money used. :)

Oh well, maybe I'm ambitious, maybe I daydream too much. But, who can ever deny the thrill it gives me to even think about doing this degree?! xP There may have been loads of other people who's done their degree earlier than my age. Who cares - I'm psyched just thinking about uni!! And then I can start my business, and make money and start contributing rather than taking for once in a while. ^^

One thing missing though - the Advanced Level Certificate!! As I've said, currently I'm doing AS level. To get the whole Advanced Level Certificate, I need to do another one year of A2 level. Only then will I have the Advanced Level Certificate, and ONLY then will I be able to 'enroll' myself in the degree thing. Because I cannot wait for a whole year to finish my Advanced Level Certificate, I've told my parents to let me do the A2 exams in January!

The whole school year starts from September until July - exams are done in January and May/ June, meaning I may only do half of the academic school year before the exams. I NEED TO WORK HARD - I KNOW!

Well, actually, for A2 levels, we're starting our 'year' from the next two weeks. By the 14^th of June 2010, we will be doing around 5 weeks of school before we break off for the summer holidays. ^^ Obviously I'm planning on studying during the summer holidays and making the school days as my revision. So, degree is still quite far away at the moment.

A2, HERE I COME!!

Oops..wait..I've still got two exams to focus on at the minute. Mechanics 1 and Decision 1 exams next Wednesday - further maths stuff. T.T. STUDY NABIHAH!! So, I really should change my motto for the time being to

M1, D1, HERE I COME!!

Ok. I think I've wrote enough. Salam ^^

Half term is here - finally!!

WooOooo!! 1 week off school after all the 'hard' work I've put in. Now, I can get some rest and some time which I can use to revise more on my school work rather than always falling behind all the time..T.T
The best part? Well, I can start writing more articles for Ezinearticles now, not that much - at least 200 is my aim! (gasps) When there's a will, there's a way! =D And I am gonna find that way no matter what! :)

All for a contest and for the prizes where you cannot find anywhere else. I had my first snowman mug and now I'm aiming for a lot more. ^-^ Hopefully, I won't lose concentration in what's most important - my studies!! xD

When studies gets out of control

Ever had one of those days when you think your head's about to explode, only because you missed a class? Well, if you miss a lesson again, be sure to read this simple article to help you through your 'struggle'.

Take some time alone

It always is a good idea to get in your room and get yourself away from household problems when you are already stressed with school. Otherwise, you may find the situation getting over the top for you. Ask your parents to be excused to your room, and if they ask why, tell them you're having problems at school and wish to solve the problem out, preferably by yourself. When you achieve some time alone, admit to yourself that you've made a mistake and think of a way through.

Be Optimistic

Pessimists never succeed because they always have a kind of barrier between themselves and success itself, which is their own thought. They keep on thinking they'll never succeed. In other words, they always expect for the worst in everything they do, to them success is just not meant for them. Do yourself a favor and don't allow yourself to be one of those people. Think positive and think forward. When you do this, you can tell yourself to work hard until you get the job done, instead of just giving up every time you think you won't make it. Plus, it adds more effort to your work, something you ought to be proud of.

This post is originally from my site. To save some tiny weeny bit of space in this blog, I've saved the best bit of this entry on the site. Please click here to read more of this article.

Sometimes, you just have to forgive and forget

When I was in my secondary school years, I used to get myself into a lot of arguments with my teachers. I didn't really know why, but it seemed as though I was their favourite 'victim' in class. I used to get teased by this one particular teacher, in front of the whole class. How embarrassing! But, as always, I try to play it cool, and instead of giving in to her, I declared a war! I mean, when a teacher just tease you all the time, of course, you'd get fed up. So, I talked back, don't worry, no one was harmed - I'm not the kind of person that hits someone only because they trash talk me. I felt so good every time I 'win' an argument with her. I felt as if I was on top of the world and no one can bring me down, until, that 'beloved' teacher of mine started questioning how my parents raised me. My heart just raced like never before, my face burned red out of disbelieve. Right at that moment, I just wanted to fight like never before, but then, I figured, there's no point in back talking, it's obvious she'll never listen. Plus, she might just bad mouth my parents even more. How dare she questioned how I was raised, I mean I know I may be a pain in the neck to her, but that has got nothing to do with my parents. I was a trouble to her cos' she was a trouble to me. If it wasn't because of her mouth, other teachers would treat me as normal. But, unfortunately for me, she just had to make me 'famous' to all the other teachers. Next thing I know, most of the teachers that taught me gave me this disapproving look every time they see me, no matter how good I was in their class.

I don't really know what their problem is, I guess it could be because I'm always late in handing in my homeworks on time. But then, if you're a teacher and your student doesn't hand in the work that you set, is teasing them really going to make it any better? NO! You'll just make her a rebel, and that was technically what happened with me, I tried so hard to actually do all the work she gave me, but it never was enough. So, I just gave up, I mean, if she's (the teacher) just going to carry on making fun of me and my effort, why should I bother even trying when she's not going to appreciate it? Ever heard of the term 'Self-Fulfilling Prophecy'?I might as well just be that person she describes me as, a lazy kid with nothing better to do. But, never will I ever agree with her saying my parents hasn't raised me well. If my parents didn't raise a good child, I would be like one of those girls from the street that would do anything just to get money. Sure I may be a rebel, but that's only because you keep on treating like I'm some sort of garbage. You want respect, you give respect!

Looking back, yeah sure I felt good for 'defending' myself and standing my ground, but there will always be a regret in my heart which I just cannot get rid of. It may be that teasing me is their way of getting me to work harder, and though it didn't succeed as they may have hoped, I should never have been so disrespectful to them. This guilt has been eating me since the day I left the school. I left the school on my third year there because I followed my dad furthering his studies in the UK. On my last day at that particular school, I wanted to, but I didn't say sorry to the teachers I've wronged. And now, my only hope is to meet them when I get back to my home country. From what I know though, the teacher has moved school. Looks like I have to stick with this guilt until I see her, wherever she may be.

Let's get ready!!

Arghh!! Hear this - I'm having an exam by the 11th and 19th January 2010, a proper AS level exam, Core 1 maths and Decision 1 maths, but I've not revised a single thing! I had two weeks christmas holidays started from the 19th of Dec till the 4th of January - surprisingly, I didn't touch a single book, well maybe I opened my Maths book when my mum realised I had exam coming but never actually revised for it. Why I did such foolish thing you ask? hehe..at the start of the hols, I rushed myself to do a work which was supposedly handed in on friday the 18th, (handed it in on saturday midnight), but turned out it was due on fri the week after school starts (How uncool is that?!). I went to a friend's house for a sleepover, and then I had my other friends coming and having a sleepover at my house and then this contest, where I had to write 25 articles in 10 days, but in my case - a week, that I just had to enter just made me think, "well..you'll have saturday and sunday to revise". To be honest, I completely forgot about the exams, until Roshni reminded me of it on FaceBook xD. And now, that I've submitted about 26 articles for the contest, I think I'm ready to start studying, don't you? Why on Earth am I still on the computer? Well, I think I'll be off now and get ready for school. Bye (:

Sports over computing?

Don't know the exact date but I dropped computing, Yay! I know before this I said I wanna have my own business in the computing industry, but, fact of the matter is, I didn't know what I was talking about! lol xP Anyways, it was getting too stressful for me as sir kept on giving us new homeworks to be handed in the day after, plus, I was getting rather put off in computing actually. The class was boring - I'd rather do maths than the work given in the class! That was how bad it was! :(
Why sports you ask? Well, basically, a friend of mine did sports and seemed to enjoy it. So, I was like "Is sports alright?" and she was like "Yeah! we do badminton in practical" (ie my fav sport) So, I was like, "Oh, I want that!" which brought to my decision to drop computing for sports. Plus, I thought sports would be a bit like a 'stress-release' for me C:. And it is! Except - it includes biology and psychology in theory lessons. I have no problems with psychology, in fact, I wanted to drop computing for psychology at first, but because there were too many people doing the course, the school won't let me. Personally, I think Biology is alright, I mean the human body is something interesting to learn about - it's just the terms that I'll need to remember is the problem. But, I guess I can't tell sir I wanna do sports just for the practical lessons T.T.

AS level!

3rd September 2009 - I'm a year 12 now! No more uniforms and no more 6 lessons in a day - free times! Plus, the students are more matured as well! ( I think)
But, the downsides - I have every four subjects every single day - Business, Computing, Maths and Further Maths. 2 Maths lessons on a Monday, and that's not including Futher Maths yet. T.T. Why I picked these subjects? Well, really there's a simple explanation for it. I picked business and computing because I want to set up my own business when I grow up, possibly somehing to do with computers. Maths and Further maths, I picked them because I love them! Joke! To be honest, I don't really know why I picked them really, just for 'fun' I guess? xP My friends said further maths is just suicidal..huhu..T.T Is it that hard!? Yes - it is! as I've just found out.
At the start of term, it really was stressful for me. I mean, imagine having so many homeworks in a day, and having to catch up with the holiday homework that you didn't do. Now let me explain myself before you get any ideas - the holiday homework was set during induction day, the day on which I forgot to go to school, which means I didn't know where to get the homework, and I did ask a friend where I could find the work, and found out the site she told me to look at actually has no work. I only found out about the work a day before school starts.T.T Who knew Year 12 could be so hard? *Sigh* :(
But, fortunately, I've learnt to chill a bit more and take things slowly and am getting less stressed now, alhamdulillah.